What happened in 2020?
Don't forget to live today by worrying tomorrow.
I don't know why I'm writing this today in 2022 it's been almost 2 years and I'm way far away from my 2020 self. Life is heaven you have is my attempt to capture the story of my life in words. I never know when I'll be able to speak my heart to anyone, but here I am writing this open-heartedly, telling myself that I have endured and survived.
Pre-Covid of my Life.
Visiting the temple started my 2020 on a wonderful note. You know it's worth going with someone for whom you have your whole heart, even though I am not used to visiting temples.
I knew that it was my last year of MBA and it had always been hard to say goodbye to friends, so we friends planned to travel places and hang out a little more. The cherry on the cake was our college decided to take us to Goa (We convinced our college to take us).
At the beginning of 2020, I was having the time of my life. As my mental and physical health improved, my heart was full, I was surrounded by someone with whom I was happy. My best companion made me more confident than ever before, and I was the best version of myself that I have ever seen.
Start of crisis Covid-19
I was aware of COVID, but we got hit hard at the beginning of March-2020. More importantly, I was jobless and didn't know what to do next, yet I was strong enough because I knew I had someone to talk to.
My friends and I were worried about getting a job because the covid was a virus that shut down the entire world. I had a friend to talk to, so I was stable mentally and physically despite not being allowed to meet anyone, festivals were not celebrated throughout the year, offices were closed so people didn't earn, but I still had someone to talk to and by having someone I was able to be stable.
Trust me everything was going and is going digital. In order to learn anything related to digital marketing, I began looking for jobs on my own. In that process, I gave 20/30 interviews and was rejected each time.
While I was doing these interviews, I suddenly had the worst moment of losing someone forever, it's the moment when you know that life is going to change drastically, when you start to realize that she won't be around to share the good and the bad with us anymore. Got sad very sad. When my parents observed my silence and absence in every situation, I decided to talk to them about my breakup before I went into depression.
They understood and trust me that's when life changed. Friends helped me through my sad days, they were my rock. Despite my best efforts to be her friend, I knew that it time to say goodbye. This is going to be a very hard blow to my mental and physical health immunity.
A few days later, I got covid and I realized that 2020 is going to be the year I'll never forget in my entire life. It was not hard for me to go 15 days without tasting or smelling anything because I was already broken from the inside. Everything was new to me.
After a while, I began to realize that I was not the only one suffering in my family. My father felt the heat of lockdown ( Sorry about writing this Paa). The talk which justified my silence and absence was something that help me talk about mental health with my dad as my family member started to observed how mental health affects someone.
In a strange turn of events, my college contacted me and helped me set up an interview with a past company where I had already interned. I gave the interview and got rejected because of different requirements. Suddenly my friend who didn't get shortlisted got selected and after 15 days I got selected for the same role which I had before in that company.
Days were passing and I was going with the flow. The year 2020 was coming to an end, and the lockdown was relaxing. I met my friends. My New Year's celebrations were ruined by a lot of alcohol, which left me vomiting and sleeping on the same floor.
However, soon after that, life turned upside down. Look for a blog about it soon.